Wait. I dont need anybody to speak on my behalf. And when I talk to you, the message is meant for you, unless I tell you otherwise.Don't try to act all nice asking people to take care of me, cheer me up. They are my friends and that's what they have been doing. Sometimes a bit too much, though. But that's ok. They mean well.

The other night means nothing. Maybe for you it does but I have moved on long ago. Hard to believe, right? especially when you think so highly of yourself. I had to break my promise to my mom not to call you, just so that you'd understand what's going on, because it seemed like you didn't.

When I said that I'd hate you to the death, I meant it. And when I was looking for you the other day, I was really going to kill you. No bluff. No drama. Nobody threatens me with death. Lucky you weren't there. And if that boyfriend of yours want to 'introduce' himself to 'us' who are not sure what he is capable of, be my guest. And 'we' is not gonna be there. Just me. And you know where I live.

What you have done, to me, to some others, made you a bad person, that's a fact. Please stop looking the bad in other people, hoping you are not alone. You are just going to humiliate yourself even more. I have never planned to manipulate you, and people are not out to get you. We just want to move on with our lives. Please. The world doesn't revolve around you.

You have admitted what you did was wrong, and apologized many times for it. But its hard to find sincerity in that when you keep responding in rather unpleasant way to people who are just reacting to the situation, which is the appropriate emotion to what's happened. It's true that its none of their business but you sort of make it theirs starting with the shameless posting of you know what. If anything, your confession has only made it look like that you're actually proud of it.

Yes. I have been meeting other people, right after I have done everything to try save our marriage. You didn't expect me to just sit in my room, face on the pillow crying blood, did you? I have found someone in the process, an angel I might say, sweetest girl, who can magically make all my pain disappear. She doesnt even have to love me to make me feel special. Just her company calms me down and makes me forget to kill anybody.

Court date? Don't worry, it's coming. A bit complicated, but as I mentioned many times, I'll let you know if I ever need your help, and the court will be contacting you. And I dont know any judge to help speed things up. Just like you, I want this to be over soon. It's gonna be like a graduation to me, DARI SEKOLAH CINTA.

Last but not least, hmmmmmm.... ntah. Takyah la.


Blah.



ps: Esah, ko jangan tah plang cerita sama mamita n budak2 sm.esh. Heh. Palui.